Why am I painting and what is the source of my inspiration? Were questions I ended up asking myself after much trauma with this difficult painting.
I realised I didn’t know what I was doing, so I stopped and asked myself questions: What was it about? and what did I want it to say? What is it actually saying? And, what is the source of my inspiration?
I sought God in prayer, as is my practice, and the word source came to me.
So what is my source of inspiration? The landscape? Sure. The colours I put down? Yes, they are an inspiration aside from the landscape. But my true source is in You Lord, You are my light, my strength and my hope. I draw from you. And I want to put that into my work, and as I thought about that, I saw that what I really wanted from this painting was the depth – being able to go right into the light in the middle. A beautiful foreground, yes. A stormy turbulent sky, by all means – but I want that in-between place of depth, light and beauty; a beautiful place to lose oneself in. That is what I want.
I thought, it doesn’t really matter about the trauma, because, at the end of the day, all the struggle and striving, forced me to consider what my strength and purpose was.
It is in You Lord, yes.
And as I look at all the ups and downs and discrepancies and lack of permanent style within my work, I realise that each painting has been driven by different ideas and thoughts, and that they are all valid in their own intent. I believe that is good, because different things speak to different people.
So, take my hands Lord and use them for Your glory.
May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing to you, O LORD, my rock and my redeemer.