Why am I painting? What is my source of inspiration? My focus? Is it the landscape? Sure. The colours I put down? Yes, they are an inspiration aside from the landscape. But what else? These were my thoughts after much trauma with this difficult painting. It had morphed into various expressions of itself. I realised I had come to the point that I didn’t know what I was doing, therefore I stopped and asked myself some questions:
What was it about?
Why am I painting it?
Is it actually saying anything?
And more to the point – what is the source of my inspiration?
These are the various forms it took!
I sought God in prayer, as is my practice, and the words ‘the source‘ came to me.
So what is my true source of inspiration? The landscape? Sure. The colours I put down? Yes, they are an inspiration aside from the landscape.
‘But my true source is in You Lord, You are my light, my strength and my hope. I draw from you.’
My own prayer
Inspiration and Focus
I want to put that into my work, and as I thought about that, I saw that what I really wanted the content and focus of this painting to be, was the depth; being able to go right into the light in the middle. A beautiful foreground was needed because that sets the scene takes the viewer right into centre stage which is that in-between place of depth, light and beauty, a beautiful place to lose oneself in. That is what I want my focus to be.
I realised that the trauma I had worked through was of little importance, because, at the end of the day, all the struggle and striving, forced me to consider what my strength and purpose was.
‘It is in You Lord’
And as I look at all the ups and downs and discrepancies and lack of permanent style within my work, I realise that each painting has been driven by different ideas and thoughts, and that they are all valid in their own intent. I believe that is good, because different things speak to different people.
‘So, take my hands Lord and use them for Your glory.’
May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing to you, O LORD, my rock and my redeemer.