Today the sea came in. Like a flood, overwhelming. I let it come, crushing, defeating. But, subside it must. Let it fall again into the ocean. Let it fall again into the depths of the bottomless sea. Let it not, wash over me.
Turning my back, I walk towards the still waters of Your presence. It is the only place to be. You love me. I feel the touch of your tender understanding. You whisper words of hope, Am I to listen? Can I go there again, Believing?
I had boldly come, asking You to step in. I stood on Your word -Proclaiming. Declaring. But all I now see is my shame. My confusion. All I now feel, is my pain.
But look up I must. I must see Jesus. I must see Jesus.
I come to You, because You are Holy. And come I must. Because I know You love me, You have my trust. You are the only place I want to be. I will faithfully come. Despite what I see. And I will declare victory. And even though I see nothing, I will believe.
Right now, I am scared of my heart. Because You see it. I was tempted to stop trusting You. And even I saw that. But what do you see? Cleanse my heart Lord. Set me free. By the blood of Jesus, cleanse my heart. Set me free from this threatening sea.
I must see Jesus. I must see Jesus.
Today I was tempted in my grief, to turn away. Not breath. Be done. I was tempted. But I am the daughter of the mighty one. And I will stand. Placing my feet firmly on the rock. I will stand on Jesus. I will stand on Him the solid rock, my sure foundation.I will trust in Him.
I have to see Jesus. It has to be Jesus.
Petrina Kent – March 2016
I wrote this at the beginning of the year after a month of fasting before God for breakthrough, which I thought we had – but then came the realisation that we were still held fast in the storm and nearly washed away. Forgive me if I’ve posted this before, but, I am now walking into a season where God is opening my spiritual eyes and I am seeing just how much He did hear my prayers and hearts cry, and I see the army on the hillside; I see the mighty hand of God at work. I am seeing Jesus. If we unwaveringly fix our eyes on Him – we will stand. I trust and pray that this will bless someone out there who reached out and touched the hem of Jesus garment. Please know – he felt it!